Fear is not my future
Hello my lovelies! It’s the third week of January. It’s wonderful to begin a new year. It feels like unwrapping a gift that isn’t unfamiliar but inspires newness as each day unfolds.
I’ve been praying as I reflect on the past, present and future. Trying to balance commitments for 2026 without succumbing to fleeting whims of resolutions for the future.
A Snowy Reflection
It’s snowing outside. The view beyond my window is blanketed in a sea of white. It’s been about 10 years since we’ve had this much snow in Maryland. Our state has all but come to a complete shutdown. Sheltering in place while the storm passes. The kids are home for their fourth day from school. Our home feels complete.
We hear the occasional snowplow roll down our street. “Mr. Fox” (my husband) and the “sonshine” (my son) taking turns in the storm shoveling a path down on our stone patio onto the grassy areas of the backyard for Dapper and Dainty to relieve themselves. I watch from my family room. I hear my “sunflower” (daughter) playing the violin on the other wing of the house.
I’ve been curled up on my sofa analyzing life as I would a rubik’s cube. I recently sprained my ankle whilst rushing down my stairs. One missed step and there I was flying in the air then falling like a fruit detaching from its trunk. The diagnosis: a bruised bone and a few torn ligaments – my entire body sore from the impact of the fall.
While not ideal, it gave me the down time to write again, something I love more than I acknowledge and nurture.
Life is unpredictable. Vulnerable. Susceptible to shifts.
If I’m honest with you and myself, I’m afraid to commit to writing, blogging, sharing. I’m afraid of putting my thoughts into the world and sharing beyond the bare minimum of a caption and a pretty picture.
I distract myself with life, errands...running to the gym, grocery store and everywhere and everything in between and beyond.
We carry our fears like a blanket. It feels like protection. It may even feel comforting but if we wrap ourselves in it, it can begin to stifle and destroy.
It becomes like a deer stricken with fear, utterly neutralized, unable to move or function.
Fear is not my future, neither is it yours
As we step back into this community together, let’s not stare into the abyss as the proverbial “dear in heads lights.”
Let us move in His Favor. Walk in His Grace, speak in His authority, sing unapologetically, dance like King David, write as His conduit, carry ourselves with dignity and dress with purpose.
I am no longer afraid, and you should not be afraid either.
We show up knowing that He not only goes before us to clear the way, but He also walks beside us. We are never alone.
“He has not given us a spirit of fear but power, love and a sound mind.”
Made for purpose... on purpose, for such a time as this
It’s reassuring, reaffirming, to rest in the promises of God – knowing He doesn’t make mistakes.
Every turn, up, down, high, low and sideways has been orchestrated for you to fulfill His purpose in and for your life.
Let’s avoid resolutions for 2026, instead let’s commit to showing up because we know who we are and whose we are...
With Grace and Gratitude, Always
Kay